I have been thinking about that sentence ever since I posted last night. By saying it was lonely grief I did not mean to diminish the support of our friends and family. We have had such support from our parents, from our siblings, our friends, our small group, our church - each one of you has been such a blessing, and has brought comfort to us during this time.
But grief itself, I think, is lonely. You suddenly find yourself "minus 1", and you feel that, you are reminded of that, throughout each day.....each time I buckle the kids into their car seats, I am 'minus 1', and each time I tuck the kids into bed, I am 'minus 1', each time I look at a family photograph, we are 'minus 1'. And, because of the way that life works out - I am alone in my memories of her kicks, of her hiccups....that is all I have, and that is where the lonely comes in.
But to our fantastic parents, to our siblings, our friends......you have been such a blessing to us. You have been the hands, the arms, the ears, the shoulders of God to us during these past 6 months as you have held us, listened to us, let us cry on your shoulders......our grief has been made bearable by the love & support that you have given to us. We love you all, and are so thankful for you.